Two months ago, I abruptly announced the end to the Kate chapter of my life.  I was longing for something more significant in my world. I was tired of superficial relationships and the isolation that seems to go hand-in-hand with sexwork, at least for me. I spent an enormous amount of time doing Kate things and not concentrating on other aspects of my life that should not have been a priority.  I woke up and thought I am done.  I can’t do this anymore.  I have a business to run that I’m not dedicated to that I need to focus on; I have goals and deadlines to meet. And quite honestly, I wasn’t proud of my performance.  So I woke up that morning, two months ago, and said, I AM DONE.  I was nervous yet liberated and excited about the new chapter: just me, not two people, just one – person.

So I’ve worked and renewed a side of me that hasn’t been around in a while.  I threw all my efforts into work. I visited with friends. I had a family visit. I got Covid.  And I set goals and became more diligent than I had been in a while.   You see, I wasn’t floating between being two separate people; I was just me.  And while it got me back in touch with the driven, motivated, focused person I once was, I was bored.  It was just me. 

So I’ve been giving this some thought.  An abrupt exit from the Kate world was precisely what I needed at the time.  I needed to shift my focus both personally and professionally. Still, I’ve realized that it wasn’t what I needed long term. In the past two months, I’ve been able to refocus, become more diligent and accomplish what I set out to do. 

Long story short, I’m back.  Kate has always been an extension of me. I’ve made valuable friendships that I adore and have had so many beautiful memories. I honestly do miss some of my favorite people.

So, to bring back Kate, I need to make sure I have balance, and my priority and focus are still mostly in my other life.  I will be focusing on the connections I have made with previously acquainted clients and limiting myself to just one engagement per week; therefore, I will prefer established friends, extended dates, and arrangements.  I will be treating this more like when I started—less of a business and more dating.  So I will be doing less of the things I hate – like professional photoshoots and ads.  Your girl is going UTR.